This week has been very hard and heartbreaking honestly. We didn't have any baptisms because the two who were supposed to be baptized confessed some stuff to us on Wednesday and we couldn't baptize them. It wasent anything crazy but it was very hard for us. They both told us the same same day and just to hear them say it to us. So its not important but they thought that our church was something different and that by joining they would become rich and famous. They thought we were a free-mason church. And I am still confused and hurt because we saw them change, they had that testimony, they did soooo much to be able to join and they are different people from when we first met with them. So we aren't really sure what to do. Then the next day Philip the one that we baptized a few weeks ago told us the same thing. He thought we were hiding something and that he was joining an Illuminati church. He then said that at his baptism his heart wasent there at all. So yeah this week was rough kabisa. The emotions and all that happened with those 3 was suuuuuper hard and its just not describable. Am i bad missionary? Or what did i do wrong. That is one problem I seem to have is that I care to much, love to much, and trust to much. Here as well as at home. When I care about someone I really really do care about them and would never purposely do anything to hurt them or wrong them. Sadly that is one thing I struggle with. And I still have that love for these 3 but now my trust is gone and its like ALLLL of the time we spent with them was for nothing and everything they said and felt was a lie. Its rough and I don't know what to do. Keep pushing forward is what I will do. On the other hand we were able to meet with many less actives this week and we even had some turn up for church! We were also able to get some new investigators so I shouldn't complain! One of them found one of our pamphlets on the side of the road and he picked it and read it and heard some rumors about the church (wrong ones of course). So he one day passed by the church and went in the gate and met President Kogo (the district president) and then Pres. Kogo called us and we able to meet with him in the next half hour and we had a verrrrrry good language with him! We also got a new investigator at church and one super less active wants to get the missionary lessons again and has started coming to church again which is incredible! We also got to go to one of our members work in Eldoret town and he introduced us to all of his colleagues and got another 1 or 2 investigators and got 12 referrals in 1 day! I think that may be a record for Eldoret haha! Getting my name up on the board. We went to a members house this week and were talking about some funny things. They said that people will like take out a loan and spend 1.2 million kish on a wedding here! I was like so are your weddings like all day then? He was like "Yeah all day, all week, all month!" Hahaha it was so funny! Then somehow we got onto lotteries and a few years ago some won a lottery here and spent alllll the money on a huge part for his town (Eldoret). Its like having a party for everyone that lives in Murray! How crazy and cool would that be!? Then somehow we got talking about Soaps on TV and how they are alllll the same and so predictable and Elder Mwanziu said that his grandma would watch this one (I forget the name) and he said "OH don't you even dare watch that one" Because it is soooo long and the girls love it I guess and we were all just laughing haha. Yesterday as Elder Mwanziu, Antony (Our branch missionary), and I walked around we must have looked the part! We all had on long sleeve white shirts, dark ties and pants, and just stood out so much! It was such a cool feeling and experience! Funny moments of the week: So motorbikes are big here and we saw this one that had a coffin strapped to back. Pshh totally normal. We then saw a Matatu n the middle of the road with cement blocks under the back and the entire rear axel was gone. Like dang these guys are goo if they can steal an entire rear axle while this Matatu is in the middle of the road! One of the mornings there was this cow that was jogging down the street running from its owner and Elder Mwanziu goes "have you even been hit with this animal?" I jut bust out laughing and am like ummm no is that normal!? And he was like it happens quite often hahahaha what the heck! !! Lastly and quickly we were sitting in a matatu waiting for it to fill with people and this guy was getting angry because his window wouldn't open and he wanted fresh air and the entire matatu was laughing and then this guy pulls out a full size towel and starts to wipe his face and neck and is like fanning it at himself and Mwanziu, Antony and I were completely dying in the very back! hahaha it was so awesome! I hope all is going for everyone and know that I love you! Its great to hear from you and again I don't have to much time to email so if I didn't respond to our email I will do so next week! Have a great week everyone and it is great to hear from you! Love, Elder Merz PS- as i tried to send some pictures this computer wont allow me. So sorry again but next time I have a tooon to send! So grab your trousers by the belt loops and hang on because it will be a crazy ride!